In Jan 2006 I weighed 263. I'm only 5'3''. I had enough and started the atkins diet, joined Curves (working out 5 days a wk), drank a protein shake for breakfast every morning and by the end of the year I weighed 180 lbs and was wearing size med pants. I felt great! I maintained that weight all of 2007 I didnt reach my goal of 130lbs but I was very happy. My workouts were less frequent (2-3x a wk), I wasnt drinking the protein shakes any longer. I drank frozen margaritas or wine when I went out with friends instead. But still, all in all, I did great. Like I said, I maintained my weight the whole year. In 2008 I got serious again and I lost another 30lbs. I was down to 150lbs. Isnt that great? Well, unfortunately that didnt last. My mother fell ill and passed away this past dec. I was a total wreck! I'm an only child so I dont have siblings to help me with making decisions with her estate. I felt soooo alone! (still do). I dont know how to exist without her. My dr. prescribed some medications to help with the sadness and anxiety. I dont know if it was the meds or just nervous eating, but I have gained 20lbs! I feel soooo fat and disgusted with myself. I'm up so 170lbs. So now I have to lose 40lbs to reach my goal. I'm having a very difficult time dieting. I do well, really well, during the week but then comes the wkend and I blow it.

I was hoping that I could find some weigh in buddies here. I want to be held accountable for my food choices. I just have to reach my goal this year! Anyone want to join me? This is the year...I've got to do it!